Closing in on day 600 (next Thurs). I’ve surpassed my previous milestone of around 550 days or whatever it was before I dove head first back into the drinking pool. woop woop
Last night I was at Applebee’s for their Monday night 1/2 price burgers, belly up to the bar drinking a deliciously cold glass of water, waiting for my greasy burger and fries to arrive. When, I saw out of the corner of my eye, the bartender clean up a shot glass from a patron and oh my. . . . . For a moment, just a split second, my thoughts immediately went to asking the her (bartender) to serve me a shot of . . . whatever – didn’t matter. I had this temporary feeling of relief, excitement, warmth, yum. It was going to happen. I felt it. I was going to throw it all away again. Then, poof. The feeling was gone. I shook my head (not literally) and thought WTF. That’s SO not going to happen. And life goes on. I must say, though, it was a very scary at the same time really odd, feeling. Seriously, that all happened in like 0.5 seconds. How quickly that could have totally turned my life upside down.