I amaze myself 🙂 Day 104 – where did the time go? Back in October, November, December, January – all those months I wanted to quit SO badly but just could not lessen the grip I had on the proverbial bottle. I was at my worst EVER. Drinking nightly, admonishing myself upon waking, thinking about where to stop to get some alcohol and what did I want to drink that night, rinse and repeat. I could not and did not want to stop but knew I was killing myself and missing out on my life.
Everyone knows that someone telling you that you need to quit just doesn’t work if you aren’t ready. I could have talked myself blue in the face and still not stopped. I don’t remember the night of Feb 3 – not that I had a black out or anything, I just don’t remember what I was doing. . . drinking heavily? drinking moderately? Anyway — what I do remember is that on Thursday, Feb 4, I just didn’t drink. My body/brain/soul just said NO.
And 104 days later, it’s still saying no. When it’s time, you know it.
I’m off to go jump out of a plane. (that’s my son in the photo but will be me next week!)