8 big ones

8 months is drawing near (this Sunday.) I remember being at an AA meeting mid-summer last year and there was a young women who was getting her coin for 8 months. I thought to myself “WOW! I wonder if I’ll ever get there.” And here I am. At the time it seemed like an impossibility. I was probably only on day 1 or something similar at the time. Her 8 months made a way bigger impact than those in the room stating their 5 years or 20 years. Knowing she was still so newly sober was a positive for me. It didn’t change anything at the time, but I’ve thought about it ever since.

Nothing new to mention. The funeral and all that happened that day did not break me. I was on my way back to my hotel room at 8:00pm, and I was so tired the thought of drinking was VERY appealing. But I went to sleep instead. The next day at the airport (they are true triggers for this alcoholic), it was about 8:45am and I was passing the open bars/restaurants. A few short months ago, I would not have thought twice about stopping in for a bloody mary or 2. It would have sounded like a great way to start a very lazy day. I sighed a heavy sigh and just continued to a chair to read.

The desire is still there, but common sense rules with a heavy hand.

I don’t think that much about drinking any more. Well, yes I do – every day, in fact. But it’s more of a fleeting thought. . . a twinge of ‘man a beer would taste AWESOME right about now’. . . a moment of weakness that is quickly over-ridden by life. Fortunately, it’s not cyclical like it used to be. I don’t experience the high’s and low’s so much any more. It’s a pretty even keel most of the time. But I’m still consuming enough sweets (chocolate, ice cream, rice krispie treats, etc.) to keep the wolf at bay.

I haven’t seen a few of you out here in cyberspace recently. I won’t name names since you probably know who you are, but just know that I’m here if you want to text or email or talk. danglingdebb@gmail.com I think about you often!

Happy Month of May πŸ™‚

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27 Responses to 8 big ones

  1. Miss Soul says:

    Congratulations on 8 months Debbie, what a remarkable accomplishment. One day at the time !

  2. Way to go,8 months is awesome!
    Sharon

  3. wren1450 says:

    I am super impressed with 8 months sobriety. Congratulations!

  4. You’re an inspiration.

  5. 8 months sober, way to go!! I know what you mean about sitting in meetings and seeing those that go before, and get chips. I saw a guy get his 6 month, and here I am knocking on that door.
    Way to go!

  6. Congrats! This is huge accomplishment and what an amazing transformation! Woot woot! You made it through a funeral and that can be very hard. I am sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your journey with us!

  7. Lilly says:

    Congratulations and big hugs to you! I am here and doing ok, though feeling those old, sneaky urges tonight, so have come here to have a read instead. So proud of you. xx

  8. FitFatFood says:

    Amazing news- well done on 8 months!

  9. thirstystill says:

    Congrats on 8 months!!!

  10. jamilynaz says:

    Congrats on 8 months! I’m so glad you’re doing well. It was great to meet you while you were here in Tucson!
    ~Jami

  11. jmcraig2014 says:

    Debbie, congrats on 8 months. Making it through a funeral is an accomplishment. Glad to hear that your urges are becoming more of a fleeting thought. That is how I am feeling at 6 1/2 months. I am getting to the point where if I go out, I don’t stare longingly at someone else’s wine, I just order a cranberry with seltzer and get on with the night.
    Last night I went to a baseball game where everybody was drinking beer and it is funny that I never noticed how beer makes everyone smell after they have had one too many. It made me glad not to be partaking. If it smells so much through people’s skin, it can’t really be too good for you.
    Jean

    • Debbie says:

      Hi Jean, Congrats on closing in on 7 months! That’s super great πŸ™‚ Being at a baseball game would be SO hard for me. Beer and ballgames go hand in hand, right? Thanks for the comment!

      • jmcraig2014 says:

        You just never know when it will hit you. I would love a drink today, I had work calls in the middle of the night and then a tough day today, so I came home feeling like I really deserved a drink. That I deserve it mode is a bad place to be for me, also for some reason I am so down, I can’t even say why. Anyway, I guess the urges will come when they are not expected and I just have to know that they will pass.

  12. momma bee says:

    Congrats Debbie on 8 months!~ So fabulous! I wish I was celebrating with you this month but I will be later this year~ Thanks for your support and have an extra Rice Krispy Treat for me~ my fave!!!

  13. Debbie says:

    Thanks, momma πŸ™‚ You will be at 8 months before you realize it! Hang in there and btw – love reading your posts!

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