Last night, as I was lying in bed waiting to fall asleep, the most amazing realization came to me. I went the WHOLE DAY WITHOUT ONCE THINKING (or agonizing or debating) ABOUT DRINKING. After 6 long months, I finally had a reprieve from that monkey chatter in my head. Holy toledo – it’s a miracle. Seriously, this is HUGE. It’s the first time I’ve gone the whole day without craving alcohol since I started on this sober journey. Had I not been in a prone position, in my bed and under my warm covers, I would truly have danced a jig or two around the room.
So, THAT’S what a day is like without thinking about boozing. Wonderful, just wonderful. A day to mark down in the books, for sure.
I just might be able to do this after all.
(Not that I’m counting days, but my work calendar says I’m at 191 days sober 🙂 )