Today is Sunday. Tomorrow (or is it Tuesday?) I hit my 180 mark. I met the 180 day challenge! Getting to 180 was easier than getting to 100, no doubt! But I have to say that days 101 to about 140 had their moments of true difficulty. Each of us has their own way of dealing with this. I’ve noticed that some who post say they have thoughts of drinking but it’s not a craving or urge (at this stage in their sobriety). To them, it’s more like a thought and it’s gone. Me, mine’s more like a need. I have to talk myself down for a few minutes. Going through the debate. Fortunately, it does go away quickly (well, quickER than it did) and it is getting less and less.
I know my day 1 was THE day that I began down this road to sobriety, but I still feel very vulnerable like I could still go either way. I am at 6 months now but it doesn’t feel like much at all. I think I will feel much better when I hit the one year mark in September. At that point I (hope I) will feel like I am truly on the right path as far as my sobriety goes. I want to be okay with being sober and know that it was the right choice. Not there yet. I feel like day 1 of living my real life is still ahead of me.