It’s Friday, the end of February. Wow, another month down 🙂 18 more days until I reach the 6 month sober mark. How crazy is that?
As I read other posts, they bring me back to my day 1’s and my day 30’s and my day 60. It’s a good reminder, it really is. This is hard stuff we are dealing with, and I never want to forget what those early (early) days felt like because I never want to see them again. And when a few days go by where I hardly think about drinking (now don’t get that confused with “don’t think about drinking” because I still do, daily), it’s easy to think we are ‘cured.’ We know damn well we are not and never will be. We know NOT to get complacent and reading posts of early sobriety keep me focused. They remind me of where I do not want to be.
I am so very grateful for each new day because each one puts me that much farther away from day 1. I can’t definitely say “yes, I feel so much better” or anything like that. My energy levels are about the same. Now, my desire to do stuff is more, that’s for sure. I have so much more time on my hands where I can actually get stuff done. For the first time since I can remember, I clean the kitchen after dinner instead of leaving the dishes for, oh, I don’t know – the weekend!! LOL Of course, I am exercising (in training for my half marathon) which I would not be doing if I was drinking. I read many posts where they speak of how much different they feel or how much better they feel. Maybe I’m just not there yet?
Well, no matter. I’m not drinking and that’s enough for right now. It’s still one day at a time and that’s fine with me. Seems to be working 🙂
Have a wonderful weekend all. If you would like someone to chat with, feel free to email me at firstname.lastname@example.org.