Well, my “100 days of sobriety” has come and gone. Now, I’m part of Team 180 and really hope that at 180 days I feel as though I have this addiction thing totally under my control. I still think about and want to drink daily. I push down the urges and life goes on. But, I want to get where I no longer have to fight this. I don’t mind thinking about drinking. But it’s a daily struggle not to drink – still. It sucks. I’ve got my fingers crossed that it really does get easier into the 110 and 120 day period.
I guess the good thing is that the holidays are almost over. One more biggie (New Year’s eve) and then we are into the new year with our newest resolutions. I don’t have any. Actually, I do, but I’m not going to put them down on a list. They will just be hanging there in space, and when I’m ready I’ll consider them 🙂 I’m still too new with the sober stuff. My sole focus will is on not drinking until I no longer need 100% of my energies to do so.
The things I am grateful for since I quit drinking 102 days ago:
1. No 3am hot flashes and bathroom runs for a huge glass of water and acetaminophen.
2. No hangovers to interfere with me waking up and getting to work on time.
3. Ability to read any time I want and remember what I read.
4. No more schedule management, i.e. planning my day around buying/drinking booze.
5. More money to spend on other irrelevant stuff.
All in all, a good 102 days.