T minus 16 days (and counting)
Each afternoon is still struggle, but it doesn’t last long. I linger on the “fuck it” problem as noted in Whineless’s post. But, I have no reason to want to drink. The day is a normal day, no real high’s or low’s. Nothing out of the ordinary. I just really want a drink. I am at the “oh, just go buy a bottle” moment for about 30 minutes. The “fuck it”, just drink tonight and start again tomorrow, noise. It’s a tough 30, but eventually I win out. I just never stop to get anything. The ‘stay here’ or ‘focus’ mantra come in to play.
Really just wanted to give myself a little shout out for nearing the 100 day mark 🙂 lol