3 weeks and 2 days left to go to reach my 100 day mark. December 27, 2014. It’s been a long haul and I seriously could not have done it without Paul, Belle, Lilly, Fern, Carrie, Ellen, Kristin, Jamie, Christy, Christine, Kate and the list goes on and on . . . Reading everyone’s stories and finding out that I CAN pull out of my funk is life saving. Truly. Getting to read then re-read something that I find inspirational is awesome. Going to a meeting and hearing people talk about what they’ve done to survive this struggle just doesn’t resonate with me. To me it just sounds like they want to one-up everyone or they are so upbeat and smiley that I want to smack them. Must be my attitude.
Most recently, reading Paul’s The Pity Patter of Little Defeats really hit home. As always, his words strike a chord with me. They make me look more deeply at myself and for that I am grateful. Keep ’em coming, Paul!
I certainly don’t feel like I did days 1 through 21 but am still having white knuckle moments. And I attribute that to being too ‘into me’ right now. I have to get out of myself. I sound like a broken record – think I said that same thing in the last post 😦 Note to self: Read my posts, I might learn something 🙂