I am actually enjoying NOT counting my days. I mentally have a pretty good idea where I am, but I am not obsessing about it nor does it bother me that I do not know the exact number. I continue to focus on today. And only today. Belle has been nice enough to email me reminders about making sure I get my treats 🙂 And with Lilly’s new Team 100 Sober Runners, I am attempting to regain momentum on the exercise front. I ran 3.2 miles Monday evening, did a rest day yesterday and will run 4 miles this evening. Knowing I am running (and I use that term very loosely), it keeps me focused on getting fit/healthy and not thinking of drinking.
I haven’t really thought about drinking these past couple of weeks. I take that back. Yes, I’ve thought about it, but it hasn’t been wolfie scratching at my door type of thinking. I thank the PTB and my brother twice daily for their intervention and giving me the strength to keep wolfie at bay and me focused. I may be having a pink cloud moment, my cycle may be on the rise, but I’m not going there either. My focus is on today and I feel pretty darn good. I deal with tomorrow when it comes. I’m still attending the downtown AA meeting daily. I missed yesterday but will be going again today. I think it helps just having that routine of meeting up with these people daily.