Feeling pretty damn good this morning. So love waking up sober. Tired, yes, but hungover, no. I’m at a week. Guess we all have to start somewhere, right?
As mentioned in yesterday’s post, I was planning to go to a lunch time AA meeting here in downtown. Well, I did. It was less than a 5 minute walk to the church basement. They stayed on schedule, had a timer and everything for those who were long winded, and I was back to work at 1:05pm. It was hard to hear (literally) those who spoke, but I got the gist of what they were saying. The topic of the day was the insanity of the last days of drinking. Like those who got totally inebriated minutes before admitting themselves to rehab. Interesting. Anyway, I think I’ll go back again today. Like mysterygirlunknown, I’m not sure AA is for me. But I’m open to learning. And it’s nice to be around people my age that admit to being alcoholics and are success stories themselves.
Certainly a different type of group. Way more business people – white collar types. What I liked about this meeting as opposed to the one I go to closer to my house is that only 1 guy, out of everyone who spoke, used ‘fuck’ and ‘bullshit’ and other choice cuss words in every sentence. His colorful language actually took me by surprise, because everyone else who spoke before him didn’t use any cuss words. To be honest, it was actually refreshing not to hear the F bomb used at the drop of a hat. Now I have, on MANY occasions, used lots and lots of colorful words in my vocabulary. And I love wearing my “fuck you wolfie” bracelet. But any more, I just don’t use the F word in my daily speech. In the group by my house, it is a bit more blue collar, the real working class folks, and EVERYONE who speaks throws in their favorite cuss word in each sentence. With this group, it’s more the norm. But, of course, to each to his/her own – whatever we need to do to express ourselves. Amen.
Thanks to all those who are following my journey. Please feel free to comment or make suggestions or put in your 2 cents. It helps 🙂
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Ahhh….now I know what a pingback is 🙂 Thanks for the link! I think you and I have a lot in common. I think I have learned “you take what you need and leave the rest.” So by going to AA meetings, I DO get a lot out of it. But I haven’t gone beyond that, and I will say yet. I tried a sponsor and that didn’t work b/c I wasn’t ready. I honestly think that nothing will work until we succumb to being ready. Cheers to a week!!! AWESOME 🙂
You hit the nail on the head – “nothing will work until we succumb…” Absolutely right!
Glad to hear you went to a meeting. I’m a bit on the fence about them too. One thing I really like is looking round the room at the other people there – I am always really surprised by the mixture of people you see. I guess it’s something that affects people from all walks of life.
It really does affect lots of different folks! I’m just glad we have the sobersphere. . . it’s been my life line so far. 🙂
Congrats on 7 days!!! And don’t diminish your huge milestone–7 days is a huge f’ing deal! (Couldn’t resist the f* reference, lol). Even people with 20+ years of sobriety still wake up and make the choice to stay sober that day. All those days add up and before you know it it’s just a way of life.
Glad you enjoyed the meeting. Keep going as long as it helps, and don’t feel pressure to get a sponsor or do the steps unless you want to try. It’s still just a suggested, not required, program–all you have to do is have a desire to quit drinking. And isn’t it nice to be in a room of people who understand you? Oh god, that was the best part for me, finally feeling understood.
I agree about being in a room full of people who understand me. It does feel good. And the topic today was fear. So relatable – especially being so fresh off the mark. Thanks, Christy.