I woke up this morning (thank God :)) and made the decision that today is the day. Not because of any epiphany or light bulb moment, but because I have to. It’s not a question of should I, can I, will I. It’s not even a question. It’s a statement of fact. It’s a must. My physical body can no longer take the abuse. I can feel it trying to fight back and it’s a losing battle, unless I stop drinking.
It’s time I find a life, my life. And begin living it. All of it, good and bad.
No more counting days. My only goal is getting through today and tonight and waking up sober tomorrow. Then, tomorrow I’ll do it again. I’m still with the 100 day challenge, but I’ll let Belle be my time keeper.