It’s been a stressful year – for me anyway. Lots of moving, lots of planning for my trip to Iceland, lots of stress about my rental home, my 15 year old cat’s health is failing, I’m not feeling 100% or even CLOSE to that.
And that’s my summary 🙂
All this leading to my newest observation – I still need the sugar. I’ll start at the beginning.
I began a new keto-like diet (Wahl’s Protocol) in March. I wanted to see if eating no carbs and eating a more natural diet would help ease my RA symptoms as well as make me feel more awake and present. I have been eating WAY TOO much sugar on a daily basis and wanted to stop that craving.
This was all while living in a double garage being renovated into a 1 bedroom apartment. The apartment had no kitchen yet and no hot water. Fortunately, it was my daughter’s home so I could go cook over there, use her refrigerator and take showers. But what a hassle. Not conducive to meal prep but I did the best I could.
I also hired a personal trainer to help get me in shape for my Iceland trip coming up mid-summer. So I’ve been working out 2x’s a week with him and hiking (rappelling, canyoneering) on the weekends. Trying to stay on a good diet while doing all this just wasn’t helpful. And not having the carbs to keep my energy levels up was noticeable.
Then I moved again into a real apartment that had a shower and kitchen :). I am so tired of moving. Anyway, with all this happening, I found all I could think about was going to a bar and getting a drink. The stress was killing me and having no sugar made me think about alcohol. It was so tempting. It was like, in my head, I was thinking “Well, if I can’t have the ice cream/candy bar/chocolate, then I’ll go have a drink” You’d think after 2 years and 5 months, that wouldn’t come up. But it did. It was not the usual witching hour or craving, it was just the desire to “stop my madness” with all the moves and changes and go sit in a bar and drink. Seemed like a normal conclusion and it shouldn’t be.
So, of course, I went out and bought a gallon of ice cream. So much for no sugar. That was scary and I’d rather crave the sugar than the alcohol. Can’t believe that after all this time, I still need something.
Hopefully, now being in a place with no renovations, I can settle back into a routine of good eating and healthy living! haha
Thanks for listening